thanks for all of the replies guys, especially the more serious ones.
We are 27 years apart and yes, deep down, I knew the day was coming at some point.
My brother lives outside of Kona. We have 2, 2 tank dives booked, and a long day of sailing around the big island booked.
He has a Harley that I've borrowed several times in the past. I'm sure I will take a day or two and ride by myself.
I'm sure that trip alone will allow me the clarity to create the vision to move forward.
I own restaurants, it would be easy to crawl into my work and rebuild what Covid has taken. That is my nature. But that is also what helped ruin a long marriage and strained several other relationships.
Friends and family have not been as blunt. But I'm sure that they don't want to say what's on their minds, and are trying to be sensitive for me....for now. Perhaps that's why I came here.
Pathetic, probably.
helpful, yes.
I uninvited her this morning, and removed her from all of my social media and phone
thanks
Cheers