He was here last night at around 9 pm.
Thanks, i had not seen him post for awhile. Last i seen was last monday.
Thanks old friend. I've been on the down low the last little bit around here, other than answering a DM here and
Thanks for the reply back Ed,Thanks old friend. I've been on the down low the last little bit around here, other than answering a DM here and
there. Reasons....not "feeling it" here lately, like I have nothing more of value to contribute is all.
There's actual knowledgeable people here in most any aspect of these cars, so I've little to offer there as well.
Some of my favorite members here are also sort of fading away, seems like - and I'm not real crazy about how
some things have gone from an administrative standpoint either, so...priorities seem out of whack is all.
Ain't my toy, no I don't want to discuss it.
Otherwise, in "real life":
Been busy wrapping things up, finishing business, part of that "don't leave a mess" deal the last dozen years
(hey, I got a couple "bonus" years out of the deal there, no complaints!).
Problem is, there was no plan beyond that (obvious reasons) and the medical piper is now calling the tune a
little more urgently.
It's all good; it was all quite expected and I couldn't have asked for more of an opportunity for sure.
I was and am blessed to have been given the time.
If the inspiration ever strikes me, maybe I'll muster up one more Story for you few folks who seem to like them
(if I remember one worth writing about) - but for right now, more practical issues specific to this time of life
(and this set of curcumstances especially) take up about all the energy I got left.
Rest assured though - Lisa, Fred and I have been out a couple times this summer when things aren't too hot
and my energy will stand it - and Fred, God love him, is the ever-trustworthy, dependable rock I built him to be.
Thanks y'all for asking about me. It helps a lot these days.
- Ed
Hi Ed. I really admire your persistence, and stamina. In my mind you have been the epitome of determination.
Good to hear you checked back in. I have also missed your posts and stories and post when you can.Thanks old friend. I've been on the down low the last little bit around here, other than answering a DM here and
there. Reasons....not "feeling it" here lately, like I have nothing more of value to contribute is all.
There's actual knowledgeable people here in most any aspect of these cars, so I've little to offer there as well.
Some of my favorite members here are also sort of fading away, seems like - and I'm not real crazy about how
some things have gone from an administrative standpoint either, so...priorities seem out of whack is all.
Ain't my toy, no I don't want to discuss it.
Otherwise, in "real life":
Been busy wrapping things up, finishing business, part of that "don't leave a mess" deal the last dozen years
(hey, I got a couple "bonus" years out of the deal there, no complaints!).
Problem is, there was no plan beyond that (obvious reasons) and the medical piper is now calling the tune a
little more urgently.
It's all good; it was all quite expected and I couldn't have asked for more of an opportunity for sure.
I was and am blessed to have been given the time.
If the inspiration ever strikes me, maybe I'll muster up one more Story for you few folks who seem to like them
(if I remember one worth writing about) - but for right now, more practical issues specific to this time of life
(and this set of curcumstances especially) take up about all the energy I got left.
Rest assured though - Lisa, Fred and I have been out a couple times this summer when things aren't too hot
and my energy will stand it - and Fred, God love him, is the ever-trustworthy, dependable rock I built him to be.
Thanks y'all for asking about me. It helps a lot these days.
- Ed
X2.
Gettin' old ain't for sissies. You are on the right track it sounds. It's a big job getting the mechanical things in order. It's even a bigger job getting your head in the right place, and preparing for what's to come.Again, thank you all VERY much. I've resisted writing anything in my current state of mind - I think it would be
such a whinefest that even I wouldn't enjoy reading it when I was done.
Besides, I don't think it's anything unique for someone my age - I imagine everyone lucky enough to get this
far have done some level of self-reckoning and assessment at this point. Nothing new under the sun...
I will say this though - the same voice that has carried me through all the carnage of surgeries, cancers, flatlines
and all that crap - is the same voice that gave me the marching orders to get my **** in order, which I've done
these last 10-12 years.
Now? It's the same voice that's telling me to settle up accounts on personal and family issues - and it's telling me
not to dawdle, so I've been slogging back through my history and mending what I can with some, settling my
mind on others I can't "fix", the goal being to get to a level of resolve and finally (this is the hardest of all, by far):
Cutting myself some slack and coming to peace with me.
Sounds simple enough, I know - but I've always been my own worst critic and taskmaster.
I can forgive just about anything and anyone - but me.
Drives my wife nuts; she tells me to knock that **** off, God love her - but the same voice is telling me this whole
journey I've been sent down the last dozen years will not be over (and peace therefore won't be achieved) until
I can get ok with this personal wreck here - but there is a time limit I'm allowed in order to get there.
Being a hetero male of the species, this is a world I have no clue how to navigate - but I guess I best get to
steppin' and learn how, pronto.
Ain't getting old FUN?
